My dependence on this site is horrible.
Why do I always feel bad when I feel depressed? I feel bad that I find it hard to connect with people. I feel bad that I’m lonely, how does that work? I don’t like being as alone as I’ve been, yet I don’t say anything except on here, and even then I don’t really express it. I don’t like people knowing. Because when I see my friends and they ask “how’ve you been?” and I say “fine”, they’ll know I’m lying. I don’t want sympathy or “someone will come along”. I don’t even want the answer to be a someone. I want the answer to be me. I just want this heaviness to go away. Yet in the end, it’s the fear of being alone. And it angers me, because a part of me doesn’t want someone. People are selfish, and they expect so much bullshit out of you. But then there are people who prove you wrong, and you can’t help but want them to keep doing that. I don’t know what’s wrong with me sometimes. I just feel out of synch with people. Maybe I demand too much from people, maybe I thought more was expected of me so I hold others to that. I’m afraid that me being alone means that I can’t be understood, because I think a good relationship is a good friendship, and who doesn’t understand you better than your friends? It doesn’t matter though, cause not may people read these things and the ones that do are never the ones I want. So this is my brick wall. I talk to it now and then. Never really venting, but certainly releasing pressure.
I should never be left with my thoughts, they intend to betray me.
If you are dirty, insignificant and unloved then rats are the ultimate role model. They exist without permission. They are hated, hunted and persecuted. They live in quiet desperation amongst the filth. And yet they are capable of bringing entire civilisations to their knees.
A wild slushie in its native habitat.
The flavored ice occurs naturally off the coast of Greenland. A common slushie will fill about 50,000 cups once butchered and distributed to slushie machines.
Slushies are in no danger of going extinct, but there is a question of cruelty as the common procedure to capture the slushie involves a harpoon, two tasers and a drill sergeant who shouts insults to distract the beast..
( T H E T I T A N S )"She [Gaia the Earth] lay with Ouranos (Sky) and bare deep-swirling Okeanos, Koios and Krios and Hyperion and Iapetos, Theia and Rhea, Themis and Mnemosyne and gold-crowned Phoibe and lovely Tethys. After them was born Kronos the wily, youngest and most terrible of her children." - Hesiod(requested by the lovely asriels)
A one hundred year old woman reflects on her deceased husband.
Sometimes all I can do is continue, because stopping was never an option for me in the first place.
Right now, 500 light years away from Earth, there’s a planet that looks a lot like our own. It is bathed in dim orangeish light, which at high noon is only as bright as the golden hour before sunset back home.
NASA scientists are calling the planet Kepler-186f, and it’s unlike anything they’ve found. The big news: Kepler-186f is the closest relative to the Earth that researchers have discovered.
It’s the first Earth-sized planet in the habitable zone of another star—the sweet spot between too-hot Mercury-like planets and too-cold Neptunes— and it is likely to give scientists their first real opportunity to seek life elsewhere in the universe. “It’s no longer in the realm of science fiction,” said Elisa Quintana, a researcher at the SETI Institute.
But if there is indeed life on Kepler-186f, it may not look like what we have here. Given the redder wavelengths of light on the planet, vegetation there would sprout in hues of yellow and orange instead of green.
Read more. [Image: NASA Ames/SETI Institute/JPL-Caltech]
Source: The Atlantic